I remember reading the La Loba story when feeling shattered, broken, and confused. It stirred within me a deep calling to collect the various aspects of myself that had been lost or set aside for one reason or another. If you took any class from me, you know it was the theme of my Winter.
I carried with me a sadness of parts of me that had been lost along my journey. While I have been busy “doing” life, I lost being a part of life and being myself. At the time I had a few medicine ceremonies that awoke in me deep pains I was unconsciously holding onto. My eyes were opened to parts I had been longing for and I started to hash out a plan to reclaim those lost aspects.
I sat down and drew an image to remind me of this story and the work before me of gathering my bones. But it wasn’t enough. So I reached out to the beautiful @luminarycreature and asked if she would design me a piece that represented La Labo. She’s magical and I trusted in her creative expressions … what she showed me of her idea blew my mind: not only was it the same basic design that I had drawn (and didn’t show her) but it was more beautiful, potent, and powerful. While she worked on what I knew would be for Ceremony, I started entering the shadow world and doing my work of gathering my bones. I journeyed with cannabis to help me see deeper and hear my intuitive self. I connected with joyful parts of myself that sang me songs of dancing freely in meadows under the moonlight.
In our Artist Sage Healing Shaman training with Katherine Skaggs, she is guiding us in the medicine wheel and in making Shamanic tools for healing. The Eastern energy inspired a wand, and we were told to go out in nature and gather our materials. While on a hike, we came across an area that was burned (Could have been controlled) … and I could feel Spirit turning my head and my eyes instantly fell on a piece of wood that was nearly the exact shape as my La Loba piece from @luminarycreature and I instantly knew it was calling to me to be part of my healing wand. I attached it to a deer antler that we found in our driveway (uh…we totally don’t live anywhere near deers) after an Ayahuasca ceremony in which I grew antlers and ran with the deer.
And in this work I am reminded of liberated empowerment of reclaiming myself. Allowing myself to be a little wild and tune into the more joyful and carefree side of life. In reclaiming myself, I am remembering how to be myself.
I’m singing my heart out… thank you La Loba 🙏